My Story

Living and breathing
in a fog of emotions

I probably cried every day of my childhood.

Yes! I was a very sensitive kid, and let’s be honest, I hated having boundaries pushed on me.

I was usually up for a good laugh at home if someone cracked a joke, even while I was in tears.

Guess what? My parents called me ‘‘the one that cries, the one that laughs”.

I was bursting and overflowing with emotions, and most of the time, I felt completely overwhelmed by them.

As a teenager, I had a break-up with a boyfriend.

I fell sick for months! Not because I cared for him but because from miles away, I was feeling the sadness he was experiencing thinking of me.

It was such a horrible experience which lasted for months, so I promised myself to never date someone who was in love with me when I wasn’t. (smiles)

I couldn’t tell the difference between what was coming from me and what was coming from others. When I was around furious people, I felt angry, and when I was around sad people, I felt sad.

My world was a whirlpool of emotions with no apparent limits. I eventually realized that I was too consciously connected to the collective unconscious then.

Living and breathing
in a fog of emotions

I probably cried every day of my childhood.

Yes! I was a very sensitive kid, and let’s be honest, I hated having boundaries pushed on me.

I was usually up for a good laugh at home if someone cracked a joke, even while I was in tears.

Guess what? My parents called me ‘‘the one that cries, the one that laughs”.

I was bursting and overflowing with emotions, and most of the time, I felt completely overwhelmed by them.

As a teenager, I had a break-up with a boyfriend.

I fell sick for months! Not because I cared for him but because from miles away, I was feeling the sadness he was experiencing thinking of me.

It was such a horrible experience which lasted for months, so I promised myself to never date someone who was in love with me when I wasn’t. (smiles)

I couldn’t tell the difference between what was coming from me and what was coming from others. When I was around furious people, I felt angry, and when I was around sad people, I felt sad.

My world was a whirlpool of emotions with no apparent limits. I eventually realized that I was too consciously connected to the collective unconscious then.

The pain of my life

Things are about to get err… challenging!

After two years of wearing a brace, I had a major backbone surgery for scoliosis at the age of 14. It meant I’ll never be able to flex my back again, my body won’t be capable of bearing weight.

What’s more?

Gymnastics was no longer an option for me, Judo was no longer an option for me, everything came to an end.

I’ll keep those 30 cm long rods crocheted around my spine for the rest of my life. I was physically impaired and mentally at the lowest point as I entered high school.

By the age of twenty, I was always awakened by aches if I slept on my belly or my left side. I suffered sciatica on some days and torticollis on others. I took benzodiazepines on certain days and pain relievers on others. At the time, I believed that if the agony continued to worsen, I would most likely end my life at the age of 40.

I was conscious I wouldn’t be able to do a physical job, so I focused on my studies and graduated with a MA in Biology of ecosystems and a BS in Statistics. Luckily, I landed my first job in Paris, doing statistical programming for the pharmaceutical industry. I then worked in Belgium, then I started contracting still for pharmaceutical companies in Basel, Switzerland. During those times, I explored most of the occidental medicine methods to reduce my pain, unsuccessfully.

I heard about synchronicity and began paying attention to it, which led me to the door of my first energy healer. I was curious and started doing sessions with her. She suggested a technique which I had never heard about before – ‘Atlas Profilax’.

I felt a bit hesitant because it was about the adjustment of the backbone. But weirdly enough, 2 weeks later, I stumbled upon a practitioner who was within a 2-minute walk from my office.

The pain of my life

Things are about to get err… challenging!

After two years of wearing a brace, I had a major backbone surgery for scoliosis at the age of 14. It meant I’ll never be able to flex my back again, my body won’t be capable of bearing weight.

What’s more?

Gymnastics was no longer an option for me, Judo was no longer an option for me, everything came to an end.

I’ll keep those 30 cm long rods crocheted around my spine for the rest of my life. I was physically impaired and mentally at the lowest point as I entered high school.

By the age of twenty, I was always awakened by aches if I slept on my belly or my left side. I suffered sciatica on some days and torticollis on others. I took benzodiazepines on certain days and pain relievers on others. At the time, I believed that if the agony continued to worsen, I would most likely end my life at the age of 40.

I was conscious I wouldn’t be able to do a physical job, so I focused on my studies and graduated with a MA in Biology of ecosystems and a BS in Statistics. Luckily, I landed my first job in Paris, doing statistical programming for the pharmaceutical industry. I then worked in Belgium, then I started contracting still for pharmaceutical companies in Basel, Switzerland. During those times, I explored most of the occidental medicine methods to reduce my pain, unsuccessfully.

I heard about synchronicity and began paying attention to it, which led me to the door of my first energy healer. I was curious and started doing sessions with her. She suggested a technique which I had never heard about before – ‘Atlas Profilax’.

I felt a bit hesitant because it was about the adjustment of the backbone. But weirdly enough, 2 weeks later, I stumbled upon a practitioner who was within a 2-minute walk from my office.

The pain of my life

Things are about to get err… challenging!

After two years of wearing a brace, I had a major backbone surgery for scoliosis at the age of 14. It meant I’ll never be able to flex my back again, my body won’t be capable of caring weight.

What’s more?

Gymnastics was no longer an option for me, Judo was no longer an option for me, everything came to an end.

I’ll keep those 30 cm long rods crocheted around my spine for the rest of my life.

I was physically impaired and mentally at the lowest point as I entered high school.

By the age of twenty, I was always awakened by aches if I slept on my belly or my left side. I suffered sciatica on some days and torticollis on others. I took benzodiazepines on certain days and pain relievers on others. At the time, I believed that if the agony continued to worsen, I would most likely end my life at the age of 40.

I was conscious I wouldn’t be able to do a physical job, so I focused on my studies and graduated with a MA in Biology of ecosystems and a BS in Statistics. Luckily, I landed my first job in Paris, doing statistical programming for the pharmaceutical industry. I then worked in Belgium, then I started contracting still for pharmaceutical companies in Basel, Switzerland. During those times, I explored most of the occidental medicine methods to reduce my pain, unsuccessfully.

I heard about synchronicity and began paying attention to it, which led me to the door of my first energy healer. I was curious and started doing sessions with her. She suggested a technique which I had never heard about before – ‘Atlas Profilax’.

I felt a bit hesitant because it was about the adjustment of the backbone. But weirdly enough, 2 weeks later, I stumbled upon a practitioner who was within a 2-minute walk from my office.

Waking up to a new reality

I arrived at my Atlas Profilax appointment on time. The guy made me lie down on my belly and began tapping my head with his little equipment.

It all happened in a flash.

He motioned for me to rise.

‘Welcome!’, he said with a smile and I returned the grin, immediately feeling lighter.

I walked outdoors, it felt as if I were gazing through love glasses. I was ecstatic, light, and completely in love with the world!

A couple of days after the session, I was resting in my bed when I felt my body vibrate. I relaxed and focused on my heart. The vibration suddenly intensified and moved all the way to my heart, propelling me out of my body.

“What the hell was that?!”

My cartesian brain went upside down. I returned rapidly to my body, but I knew now for sure that my consciousness could separate from it!

Consequently, my whole belief system changed. I used to be an atheist, but now I think that something exists and keeps going. I became hopeful, curious, and enthusiastic!

My fear of death had vanished and I had entered a new reality.

Time to experience the unseen

My interest in the unseen grew, I wanted to understand what it was all about so I left my job in Basel and travelled all over the world to experience as much as I could.

I tried anything and everything- all kinds of flavours, smells, and temperatures, and I had all kinds of awakening experiences.

My first ghost

For years, I tried to induce out-of-body experience by myself. I finally succeeded in a hotel room in Cambodia full of ghosts.

How do I know?

Well, the room was clean and decent, but for no reason, every night, I had to repeat in my brain every night: “That’s OK, I am not scared of anything, I’ll not be attacked here, I am on the last floor”.

On my last day there, in the middle of the night, I was thrown out of my body in the bedroom. While I was floating like a leaf in the air, I saw this shadowy presence in the corner.

“Hell no, that is the last place I want to be out of my body, bring me back!”

I took some time to reintegrate my body but once I was inside, I switched on the light and started crying and praying for the peace of that soul. Obviously, this is the first time I ever prayed so I improvised. After all, I was just freshly converted to the unseen.

The morning after, I seriously had doubts about what happened the night before.

While I was waiting outside the hotel for my bus, a hotel employee walked out to smoke. I took the opportunity to ask him about the yellow crosses painted above the door of some bedroom entrances.

“The Catholics did that”, he said timidly as he looked at me.

“It’s for the ghosts, people have been killed here by the Red Khmer”.

I was now aware that emotions have the ability to imprint matter and that ghosts indeed exist.

Time to experience the unseen

My interest in the unseen grew, I wanted to understand what it was all about so I left my job in Basel and travelled all over the world to experience as much as I could.

I tried anything and everything- all kinds of flavours, smells, and temperatures, and I had all kinds of awakening experiences.

My first ghost

For years, I tried to induce out-of-body experience by myself. I finally succeeded in a hotel room in Cambodia full of ghosts.

How do I know?

Well, the room was clean and decent, but for no reason, every night, I had to repeat in my brain every night: “That’s OK, I am not scared of anything, I’ll not be attacked here, I am on the last floor”.

On my last day there, in the middle of the night, I was thrown out of my body in the bedroom. While I was floating like a leaf in the air, I saw this shadowy presence in the corner.

“Hell no, that is the last place I want to be out of my body, bring me back!”

I took some time to reintegrate my body but once I was inside, I switched on the light and started crying and praying for the peace of that soul. Obviously, this is the first time I ever prayed so I improvised. After all, I was just freshly converted to the unseen.

The morning after, I seriously had doubts about what happened the night before.

While I was waiting outside the hotel for my bus, a hotel employee walked out to smoke. I took the opportunity to ask him about the yellow crosses painted above the door of some bedroom entrances.

“The Catholics did that”, he said timidly as he looked at me.

“It’s for the ghosts, people have been killed here by the Red Khmer”.

I was now aware that emotions have the ability to imprint matter and that ghosts indeed exist.

Be careful of what you wish for!

I enrolled in a workshop to learn overtone chanting, but it ended up being a modern version of a Buddhist ritual.

What is that?!

Well, we had to compose a wish list and a list of what we like to let go of. Then we spent a week doing movements and chanting the same mantras over and over.

It did not make much sense to me, so I kept glancing at the clock and waiting for the breaks every day.

On the last day, things changed…

People were complaining about their physical pains, a man was yelling and a woman started to scream as she went through a rebirth.

At closing for the first time in my life, I felt energy spiraling down inside me. I couldn’t stand for more than half an hour.

You see, just as some people like a drink or cigarette, I enjoyed sex. The ritual left me much more grounded, calm and with a considerably lower libido.

Why did that happen?

Well, one of my wishes during the ritual was to become more feminine which I did with time, but the constrain was to overcome my female lineage barriers around sexuality. That didn’t come easily, but the final reward was worth the challenge.

The lesson?

Be careful about what you wish for, it might come true, but not in the way you imagine it!

Be careful of what you wish for!

I enrolled in a workshop to learn overtone chanting, but it ended up being a modern version of a Buddhist ritual.

What is that?!

Well, we had to compose a wish list and a list of what we like to let go of. Then we spent a week doing movements and chanting the same mantras over and over.

It did not make much sense to me, so I kept glancing at the clock and waiting for the breaks every day.

On the last day, things changed…

People were complaining about their physical pains, a man was yelling and a woman started to scream as she went through a rebirth.

At closing for the first time in my life, I felt energy spiraling down inside me. I couldn’t stand for more than half an hour.

You see, just as some people like a drink or cigarette, I enjoyed sex. The ritual left me much more grounded, calm and with a considerably lower libido.

Why did that happen?

Well, one of my wishes during the ritual was to become more feminine which I did with time, but the constrain was to overcome my female lineage barriers around sexuality. That didn’t come easily, but the final reward was worth the challenge.

The lesson?

Be careful about what you wish for, it might come true, but not in the way you imagine it!

Be careful of what you wish for!

I enrolled in a workshop to learn overtone chanting, but it ended up being a modern version of a Buddhist ritual.

What is that?!

Well, we had to compose a wish list and a list of what we like to let go of. Then we spent a week doing movements and chanting the same mantras over and over.

It did not make much sense to me, so I kept glancing at the clock and waiting for the breaks every day.

On the last day, things changed…

People were complaining about

their physical pains, a man was yelling and a woman started to scream as she went through a rebirth.

At closing for the first time in my life, I felt energy spiraling down inside me. I couldn’t stand for more than half an hour.

You see, just as some people like a drink or cigarette, I enjoyed sex. The ritual left me much more grounded, calm and with a considerably lower libido.

Why did that happen?

Well, one of my wishes during the ritual was to become more feminine which I did with time, but the constrain was to overcome my female lineage barriers around sexuality. That didn’t come easily, but the final reward was worth the challenge.

The lesson?

Be careful about what you wish for, it might come true, but not in the way you imagine it!

Initiation, Healing & Training

Here’s a little list of the most transformative training and experience worth mentioning I went through:

  • I felt at ease in Ireland learning about Celtic shamanism, soul retrieval and journeying. I honoured their land with them, walked on fire and I cried half-nake with my face on the grass, coming out of their sweat lodges.
  • With a french geobiologist, I learnt how to recognize the different spirits of nature, how to work with them, recognize their element, their size and energy level. I also learnt how to deal with negative energy, find an energy place in nature and churches. With those tools, I experience a tremendous change in my life.
  • In France, I enhanced my clairvoyance with incredibly skilled clairvoyants and healers.
  • Learnt to twirl with Sufi dancers and embraced the complete stillness after doing their zikr (Sufi trances).
  • Used holotropic breathing and rebirth to experience an alternative start of consciousness
  • With Ayahuasca, I transformed into a jaguar, a snake and experienced the entire natural force.
  • I broke free from compulsive behaviour with Iboga and faced my absolute fear of losing control with Bufo.
  • Learnt all sorts of energy healing techniques (reiki, reconnective healing, access bar, etc).
  • In London, I received training in Systemic Constellation therapy which structured my clairvoyance and provided me with therapeutic knowledge.

Body Healing

The more I reconnected with myself, the more I discovered the practice that was working for my back – Posturology, Rolfing, ITM Alexander Technique, ABC chiropractor.

With the passage of years, I realized that it is never about the practice, but always about the practitioner. I felt very fortunate to have come across so many magicians.

"Physical pain was now out of my way! I was no longer torn between my feelings and those of others, and the limits were welcome as a full part of this experience."

Body Healing

The more I reconnected with myself, the more I discovered the practice that was working for my back – Posturology, Rolfing, ITM Alexander Technique, ABC chiropractor.

With the passage of years, I realized that it is never about the practice, but always about the practitioner. I felt very fortunate to have come across so many magicians.

"Physical pain was now out of my way! I was no longer torn between my feelings and those of others, and the limits were welcome as a full part of this experience."

Body Healing

The more I reconnected with myself, the more I discovered the practice that was working for my back – Posturology, Rolfing, ITM Alexander Technique, ABC chiropractor.

With the passage of years, I realized that it is never about the practice, but always about the practitioner. I felt very fortunate to have come across so many magicians.

"Physical pain was now out of my way! I was no longer torn between my feelings and those of others, and the limits were welcome as a full part of this experience."

Giving back

Dear reader, all of those encounters taught me a great deal about myself and the unconscious mind of humans.

And as I became more aligned, I could access more inner silence (also known as “the centre”, “the holy place”, “divine space”, etc), which is the cause of harmonic transformation in others.

I know the keys to reconnecting with one’s body. I understand how to structure empathic perceptions and I’ve figured out how to connect with joy and embrace our true selves.

Those are the challenges I faced, so it felt natural to share what I’d learnt to help others like you overcome their challenges faster and move happily toward themselves.

Our image is reflected in society. The more people who identify with their true selves, the more harmonious society will become. It is time to all contribute to this change!

Overall, I am grateful for all of the lovely souls I had the chance to help throughout the years. Believe me, entering into people’s closeness is a miracle. Every day, I learnt something new from them. They gave me the strength to break out from patterns that I strived so hard to ignore.

They will be in my final thoughts ​​

Love,
Karine.

Giving back

Dear reader, all of those encounters taught me a great deal about myself and the unconscious mind of humans.

And as I became more aligned, I could access more inner silence (also known as “the centre”, “the holy place”, “divine space”, etc), which is the cause of harmonic transformation in others.

I know the keys to reconnecting with one’s body. I understand how to structure empathic perceptions and I’ve figured out how to connect with joy and embrace our true selves.

Those are the challenges I faced, so it felt natural to share what I’d learnt to help others like you overcome their challenges faster and move happily toward themselves.

Our image is reflected in society. The more people who identify with their true selves, the more harmonious society will become. It is time to all contribute to this change!

Overall, I am grateful for all of the lovely souls I had the chance to help throughout the years. Believe me, entering into people’s closeness is a miracle. Every day, I learnt something new from them. They gave me the strength to break out from patterns that I strived so hard to ignore.

They will be in my final thoughts ​​

Love,
Karine.

Giving back

Dear reader, all of those encounters taught me a great deal about myself and the unconscious mind of humans.

And as I became more aligned, I could access more inner silence 

(also known as “the centre”, “the holy place”, “divine space”, etc), which is the cause of harmonic transformation in others.

I know the keys to reconnecting with one’s body. I understand how to structure empathic perceptions and I’ve figured out how to connect with joy and embrace our true selves.

Those are the challenges I faced, so it felt natural to share what I’d learnt to help others like you overcome their challenges faster and move happily toward themselves.

Our image is reflected in society. The more people who identify with their true selves, the more harmonious society will become. It is time to all contribute to this change!

Overall, I am grateful for all of the lovely souls I had the chance to help throughout the years. Believe me, entering into people’s closeness is a miracle. Every day, I learnt something new from them. They gave me the strength to break out from patterns that I strived so hard to ignore.

They will be in my final thoughts ​​

Love,
Karine.